Blind

Some people are blind. They can’t see things clearly. Is it that they cannot see things, or is that they choose not to see things clearly and level headed? Why would do we do that to ourselves? Why do we choose to put a stumbling block in front of ourselves, knowingly and willingly? Why do we go out of our way to hurt ourselves just for a mere few moments of pleasure?

There are things we do because we just do not know what else to do. We ask for help, but in reality we do not want the help that is being offered. We do not want it because we do not like what is being said, although deep down we know that it is probably the right thing to do. We just don’t like it. We choose to look away and take the immediate pleasurable result as opposed to the other choices that have a discomfort for a while, but is probably the most thought out and worthwhile decisions. But because we cannot see into the future, we want happiness now. Even if it is only temporary. We want immediate results and not wait for things to happen. Everything needs to be instantaneously. We close our eyes to the future and pray that the outcome stays the fairytale lifestyle we think it will be. Sorry, the lifestyle we hope it to be. We hope. We wish. But reality is we burry what we know is ultimately the outcome. We don’t want to see or hear of the negative side of things. If it is good now, then this is what it should be. Who is to say that it will be bad? Just because you have moderate proof of things that doesn’t qualify as factual, concrete proof for now. Things will be different. Because we want them to be. Even if things point to it differently. We will ignore the obvious and say it is different. We are blind of the obvious, what others see as black and white, we are blind because we want to be blind about it. Because it doesn’t look good and we only want good. We need the good.

Do we actually think about things on our own and really think things through? Are we a pushover for a romance lifestyle? For the happily ever after story line that only exists in books and movies and never in real life. It doesn’t matter what the age is, it always comes down to the same thing. If it is bad we don’t like it. If it negative we don’t want to hear of it. If it is good or even if it is a good lie, we will accept it graciously because it is good. And happy. Don’t forget the happiness. It makes us happy when things are going well. Even if we know they are not well. We will cover things up and make excuses, because we want happiness and the situation is quasi so. We want to only look at the positive side of things and never at the side affects. Never at how bad things can happen if we don’t take off the rose colored glasses. It is not half full. It is not half empty. It is just a half a cup. It is half. Not whole. We kid ourselves to think that is really half of a full cup. We forget that it is also half of an empty cup. But, empty is negative and we don’t like to talk about that. We don’t like to discuss it. It makes us sad. It makes us mad. So let’s forget it. If we don’t talk about it, it doesn’t really exist. It is really half full. Full of ….

We like to think we know everything. We like to accept good thoughts and words and good deeds. Good suggestions and advice. Never do we want to assume the negative of things. Even if we know that the words are just that, words. We don’t care. We like the positive of it. We like the pretty things it entails. We forget what happens when we just forget the bad and go with the good. We lose our ability to judge correctly. We lose our ability to be keen and sharp and we fall. We fall hard and fast. We get hurt once again. This time it is a harder fall. A stronger crumble. A collapse. The wall breaks and crumbles down. Like Humpty Dumpty. Can’t put Humpty Dumpty back together again. We tried. They tried. But it just can’t be done.